“为了避免自己彻底疯掉，我在成为音乐人和成为杀人犯之间做了一个选择。如果有人和我当初一样，那该是你做选择的时候了。”

"畸形只是一个外在的装饰，恐怖与愤怒才是这时代永恒的情结。暴怒的音乐充满着诱惑，污秽不堪却只似在嘲弄着每一个人。"

"你的艺术什么时候开始听从你的支持者时你的艺术就算完了"

"如果能TMD买到个计算器,干嘛要费劲学着把它算出来???"


我认为他看事情有很多聪明的方法,他可能在某些事上做错了,用不当的方式表达自己的看法,但我觉得他是想要开始脱离所谓的常轨,希特勒不喜欢自己的父亲, 所以他把这种情绪波及到整个犹太种族上,一旦你被自己个人的情绪所控制了,就是你变成邪恶的人的时候,我尽力忠实於我所想,当我渐渐长大,我不喜欢我那家 具推销员的父亲,但我也不会因此而上街杀光所有的推销员,我想要做一个好一点的人,也希望其他人能好一点,我希望人们变的坚强,我不喜欢和懦弱的朋友在一 起。
人还在学习的阶段,人类骄傲的认为他们是地球上最高级进化的形式,脑的大部分我们还不曾用过,我要做的就是到下一个阶段,有人说,药可以打开你的心灵到下一个阶段。

“一开始我就陷入了生命的阴暗面。所以那时我开始寻找对神的另外解释。反叛之初，你最显然的选择就是重金属音乐和撒旦主义。 我认为，撒旦在本质上代表反叛。 撒旦是被逐出天堂的天使，因为他想成为神。 对我来说，还有更伟大的角色去认同么？”

黑暗面(罪)是人类的本性，这是对的。

“你不能责备人们对书籍、音乐、电影和录像采取的行为，那是重要的感情宣泄。在我成长的过程中，碰到难以应付的事，我总是逃避到音乐中去。 当你将人们认同的东西从他们的生活中拿开时，就会制造出隐藏着的小炸弹，最终会爆炸的。 不被倾听是种窒息的感觉。”

“也许我应该做个基督徒让他们高兴。但我认为我找到了耶稣。我原来不知道他最初也曾迷失 ― 我不认为他和我有多么不同。”

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A CLEVER BIRD~!

its so fucking cute~!

WANNA LEARN ABC???

*note*
for me this is just for laugh
dun even give me comment if u feel it lame
GET A LIFE MEN~!

My da sao, chio right?? hahahahahhahahaah



she so cute~~~!!! >.<

zoom in *^_^*

blog is just such a convenient thing. ^^

but i still wont update often . cause nothing special to blog about actually.

buahahahahahhahhaa

AYUMI NEW SINGLE ALBUM SONG!!

AYUMI HAMASAKI - GREEN

very china style MTV. woo~! love it.
dunno if this single album release already not.
surely will buy it
but i'm broke T_T *cry*





原本光辉燿人
迎风矗立著的树木
此刻默默隐去
绚烂的色彩开始消失
仿佛那个抱著希望
却又如此疏远著一切
害怕温情的我一般

那个人的微笑
实在太过绚烂和温柔
我的柔弱开始无法隐藏
我的眼泪再也无法抑止
就在我快要触碰到你的时候
我的感情再也无法压抑

就在这一瞬间
我深深感受到了这份爱
为什麽人
按照自我的意愿走下去
会如此的艰难

本来早就应该
明白这一切
却一再对自己隐瞒
否认了真相的存在
我视线的尽头
慢慢出现了所爱的人的身影
当风吹过 沧海桑田
只希望这份思念能够传达

就在我快要触碰到你的时候
我的感情再也无法压抑
就在这一瞬间
我深深感受到了这份爱

我视线的尽头
慢慢出现了所爱的人的身影
当风吹过 沧海桑田
只希望这份思念能够传达

当万物复苏
树木回春
我会让你看见更加率真的笑


got 2 version of chinese lyric.. dunno which one is better

原本光辉照人,临风而立的树木们收起了绚烂得色彩,默默而立|
就像那个虽然抱着希望,但又因害怕温情而疏远事物的我一样
那个人的微笑实在过于绚烂,过于温柔
快要将自己最柔弱的一面展现给他人时
快要将自己的揪心哭诉出来时
就快触碰到你的那一刹那
情感忽如逸出一般
我终于深刻觉醒了这份爱
为什么人这么难以随心所欲得走下去呢
其实我早就明白了一切
但还是瞒骗自己双眼所见的现实
否定了所有的一切
我所爱的那个人的身影微现在我注视的彼端...
当风吹春土,万物聚变时...
希望这份感情能够传到你的心里
就快触碰到你的那一刹那
情感忽如逸出一般
我终于深刻觉醒了这份爱
我所爱的那个人的身影微现在我注视的彼端...
当风逝冬土,万物聚变时...
希望这份感情能够传到你的心里
当春回大地,万树萌芽之时
我想绽放更加朴实的笑容|

ENGLISH

The brilliant trees standing in the cool air
Are losing the colors as if hiding themselves
Just like me who is afraid of the warmth
Keeping myself away from anything leading to hope

The smiling face of that person
Looks dazzling and so tender
I'm afraid I might show my weakness
And start crying

I noticed this love
The moment my fingertip touched his
And my feelings were
About to flow out

I wonder why it's difficult for us
To walk as we wish

Actually I've always
Realized for sure
But I turned my eyes from the reality
And denied the truth

** I'm staring at my dear person
I might tell him
Of this feeling
Around the time the wind changes

I noticed this love
The moment my fingertip touched his
And my feelings were
About to flow out

I'm staring at my dear person
I might tell him
Of this feeling
Around the time the wind changes

When the trees come into bud again
And the leaves are freshly green
I want him to see my smile
More natural than now

i'm going to fall sick zzz

sleep = will kana flu when i wake up

eat = will feel like vomit.

huh? what kind of sickness is that huh? will die anot? blaaaaaa.

zzzzz = = im so dizzy right now..

and yeah~ tot i'm not going to have my favourite choco this year, cause i'm too broke to bought it myself.
and one very sweet friend THM (i never taste her b4 actually, so i dunno if she taste sweet. kakaka)
deliver it to my house. Oh ya, last year she oso deliver a birthday cake to me when my birthday is coming. even tou the cake is not so nice la, but i still finish it (within 1 week by myself) cause i'm very touched (fake one) .
hahahaha jk.
understand that i'm too mystery (bhb = = but i'm a Scorpio mah~ ) so many ppl dunno wat i actually wan.
i'm too scare to receive rubbish so i just told all my friend dun bought me anything this year.
and also tot i will receive nothing from THM.
SO I'M TOUCHED! but not that touch. but also touch.
and feel funny also.. cause my bday already pass for 1 month - -


door step delivery, so is register mail, that box of chocolate.. hmm. maybe the postage fees is $3.50 = 2 cup of bubble tea and 1 packet of " ju hua cha". next time treat u, dun say i not good.
buahahahha. huh what?? not enough? 1 more plate of $1 chicken rice lo... enough??
not enough?? T_T what else u wan~~~ i'm broke already.

but the chocolate its not the big one. T_T (cry, not enough for me to eat)
so i might not eat enough.



so *hint*
peixuan, get the hint??
the choco very cheap onli.
my chrismax present huh??
get ur whole family to buy it.
wahaaaaaahaaaaaaaa
hmm.. maybe cannot eat too much cause i need to DIET! T_T
but the chocolate is so nice~~~~
lucky THM say buy chocolate, so i have a chance to eat it this year



and it may be a little late to blog about this lo,
but

this is my NEW mp3~!!
8GB and onli 140+, cute right?? nice right??
look like a small HP right??

but hor, becasue my computer got many problem. so i cannot add my own song to this mp3
so i go my sis house and steal all her song.
but i notice that this mp3 ALREADY HAVE SONG!
which is some funny langues that i dunno what country it come from.
malay? indian? korea? and some funny funny old class english song
its imposible that those song comes from my sister mah.
then WHY IS THOSE SONG INSIDE A BRAND NEW MP3???
then inside got 500 and more song inside, i dunno how to delete it.. (delete till morning lo)
think when i'm free i need to go her house again to delete those funny song
the song i wan is MARILYN MANSON AYUMI AND JAYCHOU!!!

and i'm dying~~!!!
feeling so bad.
i'm so dizzy!!!

and MY DA SAO IS ON THE WAY TO GIVE BIRTH LE!!
WOOPEEE, new family member coming.

T_T i'm so not feeling well


My 2009 wish list...*updated*
- cosmetic.. maybe shiseido brand.
- tang li qi's horoscope books
- The Twelve Kingdoms novels
- diet - -
- high heel (hehes)
- $

my brother just bought me a Gaara mouse pad



MY NEW MOUSE PAD!!! ARHHHH~~
GAARA SO CUTE CUTE CUTE~~!
CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT?? HAHAHAHAHAHHAA

My 2009 wish list...
- tang li qi's horoscope books
- The Twelve Kingdoms novels
- diet - -
- high heel (hehes)
- $$

hmmm... thats all

Finally arrive after the waiting for 1 week!

dun ask me what is the white colour thingy for -- its to cover my disgusting floor



Dun ask my why is the white colour thing behind, its to cover my disgusting back ground. haha!



This is for my niece ^_^




Unfortunately... actually i feel that this red doesn't suit me..



AND.. surprisingly, the quality is sooooooo good man~!




But when i turn around i saw it..






I BOUGHT IT FROM A USA WEB MEN!
I CAN GET IT MUCH CHEAPER IF I GO TO CHINA!
but any way i'm not going there, and even if i go i also not 100% will find this shoe right? teehee
= =